Well...

As it turns out, living at my dads isn't as hard as I thought it would be. It is hard, but I feel more at home here. Yeah I still do house work, which I do enjoy doing sometimes, but I'm not being forced to do it, or all of it at once.
I have to be driven to school in the morning. And I have to get a new job soon. I quit my old one. The hours weren't worth the drive into town.

So Much for That Plan...

I thought that I would be able to fill all of those petition forms. I guess I could have if I didn't have to leave...

My mom pretty much chased me out of her house. She let her boyfriend act like our father... So in turn, he essentially called me stupid, told me that I wasn't doing the dishes right, and that he was going to watch and make sure I did them right. I have never felt more terrified in my entire life. He sat there and watched for half an hour, just to make sure that my brother and I didn't escape from the kitchen.

He could have helped us, or left us to finish them in silence like he usually does, but no... He had to make sure that everything was done his way, and no other way.

He always does stupid things like this. He is always telling me that it is my job to clean the house. Even though all he does is sit an do nothing all day. For the longest time, he kept telling me that I had to get a job so I could stop mooching money off of my mom. He is the one who doesn't have a job. I work at least twenty hours a week, and I have school on top of that. I buy every thing myself, and almost never ask for money.

All of this started up again when they fund out that my Katimavik trip was cancelled. When I told them
I was leaving for that trip, they started acting kinder and they actually helped me with the house work. As soon as my mother found out and questioned me about the status of my trip, everything started to revert back toy the way it was before...

I feel so bad leaving this petition to Sean... I know that other friends said that they would help us gather the signatures, but I was the actual volunteer. I knew almost everything about this program. I feel like I am abandoning the whole idea, which I don't want to do. I can probably gather some signatures when I am out here, but not as many as I would if I was in town.

I don't know what to do...

The Plan So Far

A friend of mine and myself are planning on starting a petition at our school to save Katimavik.

He was all for asking every supporter for their help. Riis includes every teacher that wanted me to go, and every friend who was glad to see me doing something with my life.

I will definitely post more info and possibly our petition later.

Difference in Information

Everyone keeps telling me something different. The Katimavik program itself tells me that the funding was cut for this year, where as my grandma tells me that she looked into it, and saw that it was cut for 2013.

I emailed the Katimavik people, and I am hoping to hear back from them soon. I really want to sort all of this out. I want to go so badly. All of the planning I have done up until now will be ruined if I can't go. Every detail, every minute, every secret. This sucks.

Dammit...

Post Event

I don't think I've ever felt this insignificant in my entire life. This whole situation proves that I can't do anything except scream and the on the Internet, and race about how awesome this program would have been if it ran.

I just wish that they waited until next year to can the funding...

I Was Wrong...

The funding was cut and now I can't go. I got the email this morning... And I had to leave my music class because I couldn't hold in my absolutely wonderful emotions anymore.

I just can't se how the government can deny such an awesome CANADIAN educational experience! How often do you get the chance to see you own country with new friends? How often do you get the to experience volunteering in another community?

How often does one get a chance to find a different way to live? I was looking forward to this! To be honest, I would love to waltz up to a over government office and hick eggs at the building... But that rarely accomplishes anything.

There is seriously something wrong with our government right now... They always talk about how they support Canadian education, and all that jazz. How is sacking the funding for both Katimavik AND the school board considered "supporting the educational rights of Canadian citizens"? Way to go Government! Congratulations! You managed to fuck up again! I guess that means that it is time for everyone in your office to party right? It seems like that is all you guys are god for; fucking around with the citizens of your country!

Thanks again for ruining my educational experience!

Good News!

The budget cut that the silly government is doing to everything shouldn't affect anything until 2013. My trip should be fine.

Let's hope that nothing else tries to ruin my trip.